Sunday, January 09, 2011
i'm looking for a secret blog hoping to post something that's bothering me right now.
apparently in my list of "un-managed" blogs, this has already been conceptualized.
or what is thin tank all about really?
haha. you guess it. "nonsense". this is blabber.
but first things first, i have to get all my ideas ONLINE. i have just suffered two hard disk crashes, and i feel struck with selective amnesia. that your thoughts were 'deleted'.
i want to generate a feeling. warmth. but how?
is it time to scan my address box again.. harsh..
hopefully i'll post again. because i only post when i feel empty. or hopefully not.
apparently in my list of "un-managed" blogs, this has already been conceptualized.
or what is thin tank all about really?
haha. you guess it. "nonsense". this is blabber.
but first things first, i have to get all my ideas ONLINE. i have just suffered two hard disk crashes, and i feel struck with selective amnesia. that your thoughts were 'deleted'.
i want to generate a feeling. warmth. but how?
is it time to scan my address box again.. harsh..
hopefully i'll post again. because i only post when i feel empty. or hopefully not.
Monday, September 08, 2008
what i'm up to right now?
Watch basketball, Olympics basketball, NBA basketball, PBA basketball, FIBA-Asia basketball, baskeball blogs, basketball forums, basketball plays.
But I don't play basketball.
Yikes.
I'm reading Sherlock Holmes now, in addendum to Detective Conan. One day, i'll be able to transcribe all of those stories.
And of course, documentation. How exciting! hehe.
Watch basketball, Olympics basketball, NBA basketball, PBA basketball, FIBA-Asia basketball, baskeball blogs, basketball forums, basketball plays.
But I don't play basketball.
Yikes.
I'm reading Sherlock Holmes now, in addendum to Detective Conan. One day, i'll be able to transcribe all of those stories.
And of course, documentation. How exciting! hehe.
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Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Time of The Second
Ah the perennial 'depression period'. It strikes hauntingly, never knowing it will come, and it exonerates me right now.
When time is taken away from me (forcefully or elegantly), I shudder, become distracted and loses 'will' and direction. The thing is: it has happened time and time again. The good thing is this period becomes less and less. But since it comes back from time to time, the question of elimination lingers, and the damage becomes more and more permanent.
I will wake up. I know I will. But again, until it's too late.
Ah the perennial 'depression period'. It strikes hauntingly, never knowing it will come, and it exonerates me right now.
When time is taken away from me (forcefully or elegantly), I shudder, become distracted and loses 'will' and direction. The thing is: it has happened time and time again. The good thing is this period becomes less and less. But since it comes back from time to time, the question of elimination lingers, and the damage becomes more and more permanent.
I will wake up. I know I will. But again, until it's too late.
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Fast Songs
Everytime I study, I make it a point to listen to uptempo, rock anthems. It make your mind race to reach the finish line of nailing an important concept. Like current driving up to power the electronics of choice. Amped up to ear-splitting volumes to block out the interfering signals. And the brain has no choice but to respond head on. Go neurons!
Labels: Rock
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
'I Was Never Efficient'
After several years of playing through my ups and downs, it has become important for me to finish. As in finish anything. May it be a completed set of Invisibles graphic novels, a short short film to whet my right side of the brain tendencies, and glorifying my love life. Just to achieve a closure.
A fitting end to cap it all off is the long walk to graduation: the MS tragedy.
Or comedy. Depending which side you are on.
Which leads me to an epiphany. All this time I found faults at players in my passion of basketball on how they should improve. When I should have seen my faults at my own game.
But if self is the worst evaluator of talent, then who is?
If I will myself to finish this tragedy at this point of my life, and conjure all those thermodynamic formulas that was previously pertained as of no use, even at 1% efficiency is better than none at all.
After several years of playing through my ups and downs, it has become important for me to finish. As in finish anything. May it be a completed set of Invisibles graphic novels, a short short film to whet my right side of the brain tendencies, and glorifying my love life. Just to achieve a closure.
A fitting end to cap it all off is the long walk to graduation: the MS tragedy.
Or comedy. Depending which side you are on.
Which leads me to an epiphany. All this time I found faults at players in my passion of basketball on how they should improve. When I should have seen my faults at my own game.
But if self is the worst evaluator of talent, then who is?
If I will myself to finish this tragedy at this point of my life, and conjure all those thermodynamic formulas that was previously pertained as of no use, even at 1% efficiency is better than none at all.
Labels: Status
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
i feel trapped. i feel pigeon-holed by people. i feel subjected to biased pre-notions against me.
as i flood my ear drums with Foo Fighter's "Best of You", i remind myself of the struggle that i went through to reach where i'm sitting right now. i'm still nowhere, doing research for an uncertain future, acquiring skills (fast) that hopefully will be of use.
but as i live my life to the current model i'm using right now, it has become evident the need for an objective paradigm shift. i'm still stuck here, yes. but not for long. not for long.
as i flood my ear drums with Foo Fighter's "Best of You", i remind myself of the struggle that i went through to reach where i'm sitting right now. i'm still nowhere, doing research for an uncertain future, acquiring skills (fast) that hopefully will be of use.
but as i live my life to the current model i'm using right now, it has become evident the need for an objective paradigm shift. i'm still stuck here, yes. but not for long. not for long.
Labels: Status
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
it's only now that i thought of age as a function of musical interest.
as you grow older, the themes start to be more deeper than your typical candy-lickin' songs.
i'm listening to Welcome the Night by The Ataris and i hear Kris Roe growing up from the punk-love songs of the band's past albums. this amplifies to me resoundingly since you can't sing about a blatant broken heart forever. Those themes can be hidden, which implies depth. And that's all the album resonates to me.
i will do more in depth listening in the future. i planned to do reviews with Jimmy Eat World's Chasing the Light and Lifehouse's Who We Are albums, but time and fluctuating interest on importannce of work won't permit me.
PS: This post brings back to my planned EP of songs formulated 3 to 5 years back. How can i record those songs when i'm not the same guy anymore?
as you grow older, the themes start to be more deeper than your typical candy-lickin' songs.
i'm listening to Welcome the Night by The Ataris and i hear Kris Roe growing up from the punk-love songs of the band's past albums. this amplifies to me resoundingly since you can't sing about a blatant broken heart forever. Those themes can be hidden, which implies depth. And that's all the album resonates to me.
i will do more in depth listening in the future. i planned to do reviews with Jimmy Eat World's Chasing the Light and Lifehouse's Who We Are albums, but time and fluctuating interest on importannce of work won't permit me.
PS: This post brings back to my planned EP of songs formulated 3 to 5 years back. How can i record those songs when i'm not the same guy anymore?
